Writings

Just some of the stuff i wrote down, or stuff I have written. People say it’s good i don’t usually believe it i just like to write whats going on sometimes.

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I miss the way you hug me, touch my back and rub me.
I miss the way you smile and the way you looked like you won a prize everytime you saw me.
I miss us talking for hours on end and the never wanting to hang up the phone at the end.
I miss the way you make me laugh, and now i know you try but deep inside it’s not the same.
I miss the way you’d lead on me and hold me close even when people would see.
I miss your random text messages you’d send me at midnight.
I miss the way you’d grab my hand to pull me closer and steal one more kiss.
But really i miss us…

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I’ve never been seen i’m always invisible
my feelings are hurt like a gun shot to the heart
the tears I’d shed would be very real but not having you to understand make me fight myself and hold them back.
your priorities are whack for me to be at the shit bottom of that list, and someone else to rise to the top.
how you’ve made me feel todayyou’ve hurt me from the inside out.
I’m sorry I care and that you matter to me, I thought we were equal but apparently it’s divided between three people.
Your words make you come across that you care, but actions speak louder than words.
But when your actions and words seem to be concerned with her.

Well here’s my few words…. figure out who you want, and realize you’ve hurt me and if you care you might want to say ……..I’m sorry.

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Have you ever seen what i’ve been through
Broken, beat and called a fool, he told me that he loved me and that he cared.
but then he’d slap me til i couldn’t bear.
I was smart and got good grades, but was always got called stupid from “the authority” up above.
You left me with bruises and cuts that would always heal.
But my scars are so very real.
The pain you put me through day and night was unbearable to stand. that i had to cry myself to sleep at night.
With all the pain you put me through, there’s no wonder why i can’t stand you.
Why would i want to be around you, and try to shine with that fake smile with all that pain that’s deep inside.
Now that i’m older i don’t care, if you miss who i used to be.
Cuz now all i do is put on a “front” and through up my guard to my one true love.
But in time he will see that all i had was pain and misery.
But now i can look down the stairs and see that i won’t be falling those eight feet, and that his hand will only ever be raised to clap and cheer when i do great. the sound of his voice will never make me shed a tear. but now i can clearly see that someone truely loves me for me.

~AKLR~
FYI – i won an award for this writting i was in the top 10 for the best short story writers all over canada.

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your friends ask what you see in me,
i’m only me, it’s alright
they ask why you talk to me, what could she possibly have to say,
i’m only me, it’s alright
they tell you, you’ve got a gurl why lose her, when the “new girl” couldn’t mtch up in your world,
i’m only me, it’s alright
maybe it’s true i’m only me, i’m not rich u’m just your average chick and yeah i’m a midget.
i’m only me, it’s alright
i’m not her, and you don’t mind
i’m only me, it’s alright
you only kissed me once or twice
but you always held me tight, while you looked me in the eyes
maybe then one day you’ll pick me
i’m only me, it’s alright

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you always told me your thoughts and dreams
you always gave me a smile even if i was always seemed wrong
you never gave up on a fight always knowing who was wrong and right
you always said that there was something you loved, the touch of my hand or was it the way i loved
you always looked at me with these eyes, so i would have something to think about deep inside
you always can make me laugh or make me smile, but not once have you made me cry
you always are on my mind, but what i’d always like to know, do i ever surround your mind. please would you let me know.

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What is it that you do,
that keeps me wanting you
What is it that you do,
that keeps me wanting to hold you
What is it that you do,
that keeps me wanting to hug you
What is it that you do,
that keeps me smiling when i think of you
What is it that you do,
that keeps me thinking, What is it exactly that I do?

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You had me interested at the start
You held my hand and stole my heart
You told me what i wanted to hear,
That i was pretty and to have no fears

You danced with me like a fool and you made me laugh no matter what we’d do
When we walked you kept me close, cuz you didn’t want to let me go
But now that you left, I am free
But will you come back and rescue me?.

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Do you know the way you make me feel.
in the wind you block the chill
you hold my hand and keep it close
the way you hug me keeps me warm

you dance like a fool but you make it cool
you look at me with a smile on your face
that makes me blush to say the least
i love that you laugh at all my jokes
even if there lame and old

you chase me down the hall
to try to catch me once again
even though i’ve never left
i doubt you know how you make me feel
but maybe after reading this

you’ll know the way you make me feel

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